~"Sometimes sacrifices show you how much you are in love with that person and how far can you go for them."~
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And she opened her eyes. I was so excited and nervous to see her, both at the same time. I wanted to see her as soon as possible and I wanted to make her mine as soon as possible. I asked the nurse if I could see her. I was allowed to go and see her.
Her eyes were closed. She was looking paler. I wished to have her back. I wad praying for that constantly.
And she opened her eyes. I had kept my hand on her hand. She didn't oppose it, so I felt a bit relieved. She had tears in her eyes which were red. Her face was reflecting it all, she was in pain, pain of regret. She was looking towards the wall and held my hand tightly. It was as if she wanted to say something but couldn't. I could see it all.
I gave her, her medicines and water. Without saying anything, she had them. She wasn't saying a single word, I wanted to know what was going on inside her, I couldn't let the ocean of pain and grief submerge her any further. So I broke the silence. I took out everything inside me that happened last night.
Tears started flowing out of her eyes. And she hugged me tight. It was one of those hugs which indicated the reunion of two lost souls. She was sorry. I didn't want to make her feel guilty conscious, so I said nothing. I hugged her more tightly.
After some moment of silence, she broke it by saying something which was something totally unexpected.
She said, "Aryan, I now realize what true love is. And I did something so wrong with you. And here you are, still there for me, I mean, how, why? Shouldn't you be hating me. I know you want us to be together, but it cannot happen Aryan. I have hurt you enough and I cannot, anymore. I am around you, but I can't be with you. I just can't hurt you anymore. I feel ashamed of myself. How can be like this?
But I'll improve now. You would see. I would be a better person and would try repenting the sins I've done and would settle everything with you. Please forgive me, once."
She had tears in her eyes.
I couldn't say anything.
I just hugged her tight and kissed her forehead.
I smiled and left her room.
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A phone call brought me back from my past. It was Di. She was the best. She knew when I needed her and she would be there always.
She wanted me to get back home soon.
Shit!
How could I forget?
Di was getting engaged in another two weeks. I always used to tell her that she was lucky to never fall in love, and now she was getting married according to family's wishes. And she would often laugh this talk away.
I had to go back home. The place I feared going back to the most. The place that made me who I am. The very same place that haunts me and makes me want to run away.
But that place was my home. No matter what happens, it was my solace. I had to go back.
I booked the tickets for the flight back, and i was ready, broken, shattered, but all ready to go back home.
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And she opened her eyes. I was so excited and nervous to see her, both at the same time. I wanted to see her as soon as possible and I wanted to make her mine as soon as possible. I asked the nurse if I could see her. I was allowed to go and see her.
Her eyes were closed. She was looking paler. I wished to have her back. I wad praying for that constantly.
And she opened her eyes. I had kept my hand on her hand. She didn't oppose it, so I felt a bit relieved. She had tears in her eyes which were red. Her face was reflecting it all, she was in pain, pain of regret. She was looking towards the wall and held my hand tightly. It was as if she wanted to say something but couldn't. I could see it all.
I gave her, her medicines and water. Without saying anything, she had them. She wasn't saying a single word, I wanted to know what was going on inside her, I couldn't let the ocean of pain and grief submerge her any further. So I broke the silence. I took out everything inside me that happened last night.
Tears started flowing out of her eyes. And she hugged me tight. It was one of those hugs which indicated the reunion of two lost souls. She was sorry. I didn't want to make her feel guilty conscious, so I said nothing. I hugged her more tightly.
After some moment of silence, she broke it by saying something which was something totally unexpected.
She said, "Aryan, I now realize what true love is. And I did something so wrong with you. And here you are, still there for me, I mean, how, why? Shouldn't you be hating me. I know you want us to be together, but it cannot happen Aryan. I have hurt you enough and I cannot, anymore. I am around you, but I can't be with you. I just can't hurt you anymore. I feel ashamed of myself. How can be like this?
But I'll improve now. You would see. I would be a better person and would try repenting the sins I've done and would settle everything with you. Please forgive me, once."
She had tears in her eyes.
I couldn't say anything.
I just hugged her tight and kissed her forehead.
I smiled and left her room.
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A phone call brought me back from my past. It was Di. She was the best. She knew when I needed her and she would be there always.
She wanted me to get back home soon.
Shit!
How could I forget?
Di was getting engaged in another two weeks. I always used to tell her that she was lucky to never fall in love, and now she was getting married according to family's wishes. And she would often laugh this talk away.
I had to go back home. The place I feared going back to the most. The place that made me who I am. The very same place that haunts me and makes me want to run away.
But that place was my home. No matter what happens, it was my solace. I had to go back.
I booked the tickets for the flight back, and i was ready, broken, shattered, but all ready to go back home.
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