~"No matter how much they hurt you, no matter how much they break you, ironically they are the only ones who can put you up back together."~
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So the next day I was waiting for her, and for the answers. I have no clue what was with her.
She came downstairs near the hall and was about to exit. I could see all that from those glass windows. She didn't have any clue that I was waiting for her near the garden.
And she stepped outside. No matter what happened, she still managed to capture my heart. I still feel those butterflies when she passes by me.
I could never even thinking of hating her, not even In my craziest dreams.
"Listen Saanvi, we need to talk. It's important. Please don't say no. Just listen to me once.", I was literally begging.
"Please Aryan. Please let me go. I'll get late for college. The next bus would come too late. Please. We aren't in the right circumstances to talk to each other. It's better you leave me and we both continue with our lives peacefully.", she said.
"Let me drop you. We can talk in the way. Please. For old time's sake.", I requested her.
"Okay. Fine.", and she moved towards the car.
She didn't even look towards me, not even once. God knows where is that girl lost,the one I've known since forever.
I asked her. I wanted my answers. And she knew I wouldn't let her go until she let it out.
So she said everything, everything that crushed me more and more, but I listened to her patiently.
"Listen Aryan. You and me are of no match. Look at the standard of your family and then look at me. It's next to impossible. We can't be together, ever. Even if we try I would never be able to adjust with your family standards, I'm not used to those luxuries and that kind of lifestyle. I might have a place in your heart but in your life, it's definately not me who is made for you. We are poles apart. Come out of it Aryan please. Step into reality. Dream world may fetch something to people like you, but for people like me, it's absurd to even dream like that. And to be honest, I have someone else in my life. Someone with whom I can actually dream of a future. Not with someone with whom my future is point blank. That someone, he may not be perfect like you, but atleast I can see my dreams with him. I'm assured of some possibility, which is otherwise zero. And I guess you would understand what I meant.", she said it all.
I didn't know what to react. We reached her college. I saw her moving towards a guy, I guess it was him. He hugged her tight.
Maybe she was right, maybe he would keep her a lot more happy and give her his love.
But what was my fault. Was it that I was rich? I just couldn't accept it. Something was provoking me inside to go and surrender myself to her, but for the sake of her happiness, I had to drift away.
With every passing day, I was getting away from her. But that smile on her face, that somehow assured me that everything is fine on her side. We did talk, as friends. And I was happy to have her with me, maybe by just being friends.
It somehow broke my heart to see her happy with someone else, but seeing her happy, that was all I wanted.
I was going back to Delhi after a month. And before going she hugged me tight and thanked me for understanding her. She thanked me for being with her as her best friend. I was happy for her, but my broken heart, it couldn't just bear it.
To distract myself, I engrossed myself into studies and work. I had to achieve. I had to complete my father's dream. I couldn't just look back anymore.
Time was passing by, I was just going on with my life, I wasn't actually living it.
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