~"Sometimes we accept the things just because the ones we love have accepted it and we are left alone with no option."~
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Why did she say that?
What happened to my girl all of a sudden? Her sentence she spoke that night rewinds every other hour in my head. I just couldn't let her go.
What might have made her say it?
It had been a month I was back in Delhi but my heart was left there, broken, right at that terrace of my house when she said she isn't mine anymore.
Thinking about everything, I land myself up in tears. Even her thoughts were enough to break and crush my already broken heart.
Maybe, we weren't meant to be, but I was not ready to accept it.
I didn't want to give up.
My wind always wandered back to her thoughts. I wasn't able to concentrate on anything at all. Everything suddenly seemed to be unpleasant. I was hating everything around me.
College, work, roaming around, nothing seemed to distract me. Every other day I used to call her and send her long texts. And I was ignored. Every effort of mine went in vain. I was still not ready to accept it. But I just couldn't force her against her wish.
I used to wish for a single reply.
But no, nothing.
Soon after she changed her number and I was lost in the sea of disappointment. Thank God to Radhika Di, things were a bit stable by my side.
But still nothing was the same. I tried to be normal, but a broken heart full of memories cannot be mended so soon, and it sometimes can never be mended. The scars remain, no matter how much you try to heal it.
On second thoughts, I didn't want to go back home. But the semester was over, I was done with exams, thanks to Di's help I did good in them, otherwise mom and dad would have been worried. I tried my best not to show them my pain. I was giving my best excuses of not going back. But then Dadi, she wanted to have me around in my holidays. She was sick as well, I too wanted to be around her.
So finally I was going back home in my break. Going back to the place I grew up all my life and ironically the same place where I lost myself to life.
But I had to go.
There was no other option.
I was going to face something I'd been running from all this while.
And finally I was back home, nothing seemed to be like in it's place.
But I had to put up that smile on my fave to show how strong I could be.
And that day I was searching for answers, instead I got another mystery to solve.
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